Swelling Strings And Blaring Trumpets

Somewhat embarrassingly, I can't get the movie Avatar out of my mind. Its like a song that you just can't get out of your head. Except its an entire movie. So in an attempt to do something about it, I got the soundtrack, and have now become completely addicted to it (great). The soundtrack does pretty much what the movie did to me on a smaller scale; it swells a storm of emotion. I honestly don't know what it is about this production that just hits home for me. I feel like it reached deep within me and touched something that resonates throughout my entire being. I think my problem is that I want Pandora to be real. Amongst all its dangers and hardships, I think I found something that I am so dearly wishing was a reality. An escape from the inevitable monotony of this life here on Earth. Everyone is pushing for me to do this or that, asking me what career I want to take up, where I want to go to school next, what I want to study. I know what I want to do. But its unacceptable to our society. I want to pioneer, in the straight up definition of that word. I want to go out to explore and see things that no one else has laid their eyes on. I want to discover new places with their own extraordinary history and past. I want to divulge in God's complete mastery over Creation. I don't want to sit behind a desk and make money. Sure, money's useful and all that, but I wish I could live without it. Look at what its done to our societies. Greed over a number in a bank account has corrupted the best of us into slaves of the pursuit of wealth. Yet all that turns into is sustenance. 40+ hours a week means a meal on the table and a warm house to sleep in. It works. But its a system that entraps. We weren't meant to do menial jobs our entire lives just so that we could live. I want to do something that MEANS something. Something that I'm passionate about, something that I love. I want to break free from all this. But I don't know how. I don't even think its possible. You have to have money to do anything. And that means doing exactly what everyone else has been doing for centuries. I think that Avatar gave me a glimpse into that deeply rooted dream. A chance at a life away from all this. So I find myself daydreaming of a freedom that doesn't exist, and wishing that it did. Yeah, life's not all fun and games; and I don't want it to be. What I long for is it to bring up a new challenge every day; not one that I simply have to throw money at, but one that I have to DO something about. I want life to be significant. I want an option that it seems I just don't have.